sonofa

ok so, those of you who know me, i'm really sorry that i can't get out of this funk. it's just been really hard with Cooper's passing. i'm trying to find peace with it. i haven't cried yet today! eyes are little teary but that's it so far. :) our vet tech said that pancreatitis is common in younger cats, so that really could have been all that was wrong. i just wonder how he got it. and it really sucks bc i will never know. i won't ever know if that's really what the cause of death was, and that kills me. carey & my sister kept me out of the house a lot yesterday which helped a little, bc then now all i could think of was how bad i feel for Daisy, bc she & Coop were together when nobody was home. they actually played with each other, too, so i knew they were happy. now i just feel so bad leaving her home alone. :/ i took her to my mom's to play with Gidget. then kim stopped over with Diva & Coco, so the 4 of them had a blasty blast. then Kim & i took ALL 4 dogs to the boylan's to play. and they all had a great time there!

Molly was so cute, she kept wanting to hold Gidget's leash & saying, "Widget is a great puppy." after everyone was playing, all the doggies were thirsty, molly picked up gidget to take her to the water. then she did the same with Coco. cute. too cute.

then we all went to the Life Time pool for some fun. Kim, Joe, Jimmy & I ate some grub then we went home. Jimmy & I took Daisy on a long walk through the SR Field.

and i came up with an idea. (for the record I AM OBVIOUSLY JOKING ABOUT THIS...i really would NEVER want to do this) it's just my way of coping...

...since i will forever miss the cuddling, the greeting, the trying to find him......i changed my mind and want Cooper stuffed (again totally not true). this way i can still cuddle with him, i could hide him and make jimmy go find him, daisy might actually win a fight against him for once, i could put him by the door when i leave, so when i come home he is there, i could even take him with me!!!! haha. (sorry, i'm just trying to make light of things) we're having him cremated & i have to go find a really AMAZING container of some sort to put him in. i like jimmy's idea of going to an antique shop, that way i can find something unique (just like mr. man) and i just so happens know of a great antique shop! his grandma's! Whitney also came up with a great idea: to make a book about him. so that is what i will be working on! then hundreds of years from now, i can read to my kids about the greatest kitty cat that there ever was......

i just realized something. everyone said that Cooper was the devil (but i loved him SOOOOO much anyway), i mean seriously his middle name was Lucifer. when he passed away he was 6 years old, he died in the 6th month of the year, and he was sick for 6 days! oh, shit.